December 3:
So, where
are we?
My weight
this morning: 298.6
Husband’s
weight: 299
Number of
Job interviews on Horizon: 0
Number of
Job’s applied to in the last week: 10
Last night,
before bed, I used my weight loss hypnosis cd.
I am as skeptical as possible as to whether or not the hypnosis
worked. If one loses weight from this, I
almost believe the relaxed state she puts you in while being hypnotized must
work on some level as well. I don’t
know. I heard her mention drinking lots
of water, and today, I am. Now, my
skeptical self believes that the water just tastes good when the building is
overheated due to global warming in December, but maybe.
I’ve kept up
with the goal of the day:
Dec. 1:
Begin to Read: Coaching Yourself to a new
Career.
Dec. 2: Help
husband around the house, cleaning. I
was able to do this. I helped with
cleaning, decorating, laundry, dishes, storage, and cooking. These are things that I haven’t been able to
do in a very long time.
Dec. 3 Climb
the stairs at work in the morning.
Where we are
going:
Continue
with hypnosis, 1 goal a day, success journal, and Coaching myself to a new Career.
Dec. 4’s
Goal is to buy healthy food for us and climb the stairs at work in the morning.
Christmas is
hard. This year, I took a stand
though. My parent’s give out what they
call the “first gift of Christmas,” which usually entails some Christian themed
Christmas ornament. It always comes with
a Jesus story or something about how Christ is lord and savior. It’s obnoxious and annoying, but my
grandmother, whom is extremely abusive to us all, always finds a way at ruining
it. This makes my mother cry every year,
and then I find myself making a much bigger deal out of it to make my mother
feel better.
But, see,
here’s the thing. I don’t necessarily believe in Christ the way that others,
namely my family, do. To me, he is
just another person’s incarnation of what they believe “God” or the “Universe”
to look like and behave like. There,
I’ve said it out loud.
This year we
went with what was meaningful to us as a couple, we rid ourselves of all the ornaments
of the past that brought negative feelings when we looked at them. Trashed or donated all of the nativity sets
and things we were just keeping out of guilt.
We threw away several of the first gifts of Christmas and freed
ourselves from holding onto memories that are neither magical or happy.
Our
apartment looks and feels beautiful. We
did this.
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